So, we have our car (YAY), but it needs a little work (BOO!). No surprise, we figured it would, since it was so cheap. It's at our honda guy right now getting checked out and should be fixed up later this week, or closer to being fixed up.
Since the whole marriage thing, (-: I am in charge of the finances. I am the budget conscience, organized one of the two of us, so it only makes cents (ha ha) that I do the budget. Well, that's all great and everything, but it's a little stressful, let me tell ya. I always did my own budgeting, but it's much harder when you have to account for two people spending money. It is definitely taking some adjusting.
With us having a car payment for the first time (YUCK), and fixing it up, and bills, I have to admit I let myself get quite anxious and worried over the weekend. I was second guessing our purchase (which we prayed together about), and just overwhelmed at our pile of debt, including student loans and car payments, etc. I was really letting it get to me... what if this, what if that, what if we don't have enough money to pay everything off on time? (side note: the situation is really not that bad, but I let it get to worst case scenario status is my mind)
Then it hit me: I was acting like an Israelite. You remember how in scripture the Israelites saw God do miraculous things. Like, seriously, the SAW MIRACLES. And then it seemed like no time until they were making false gods and worshipping them. Where was their faith? Didn't they remember the Lord and trust Him? Well, folks, that's how I was acting.
I have seen the Lord do so many incredible things for my finances over the years. I remember one time I needed a timing belt change on a car and I didn't have the money and then, seriously, a random $250ish dollar check showed up in the mail that was from a college I had attended. They had tried to give me a refund for like two years but somehow couldn't find my mailing address. Talk about the Lord's provision. The Lord has ALWAYS provided EVERYTHING I need. Why would he stop now?
Father, thank You for Your constant provision. Please grow my faith and trust in You so that I do not doubt your provision. Thank you for being our Provider.
25"Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? 26Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?
28"And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. 29Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 30If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? 31So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' 32For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.